It has been long I have been trying to keep a habit of writing daily at least once a day. But somehow, I think I am not so motivated enough to carry on. Well it is easier to blame than done. Of course, as a human being I (we all) behave in a certain way which is perfectly valid and acceptable, as I grew up in very different environment, I worked in many places, cultures and with different people. I think it is wise to say my mind developed some resilience to remove some of beliefs. It’s kind of strange. I think beliefs are not that natural and it is really hard to dealt with. It is interweaved so deeply with emotions and behaviours, may be some with memories, experiences. As I observed it now I found it more fascinating things about myself, my mind and inner self. Although all three are seem to similar but in fact it’s not. Mind always play dirty tricks on you. It mimics with fear, afraid, constant negative impulse and rejections. Any thoughts or courage comes from inner self. Intuition, inspiration, motivation and driven force comes from inner self, although I do not know much about it but I believe its existence and it is an integral part of myself.
Right it seems all riddle in first places but let me simplify for you. I am talking about the misery of mind and its behaviour in certain condition where it start panic and stressed, I have been many times in that situation, everybody does, but what they don’t know is “why ???” and I am trying understand myself more than anyone else. And you should read this as well. It might help you to find a better way to deal with it. As a human we are all surrounded by our loved ones, friends, family, and emotional attachment with other human beings, we share our surrounding with others, emotions are so deep that we cannot control it, we think we know more about our experience and assume that it converted into knowledge but in fact, knowledge is just an entity which represents facts based on your own understanding of particular situation and result of actions you (or someone else) taken that was attached to the emotion you felt at the time. But it is not true in all conditions, facts can be varied; so, does the situation and emotions. We cannot rely on the knowledge we experience, we need to prove it to the nth degree. But that would become more monolithic, so dump, plain facts and no such enthusiasm. Right, so what do we do to make sense? Humm…… Interesting now. Think.
Now imagine, you could able to detach your thoughts from your mind, yourself and inner self. Become an observer, whatever happening around, inside, outside you and surrounded yourself, you are just become an observer, you are not a part of it, let it be happen, see yourself the way you never ever imagine, may be your mind will react on this, what happen if you cannot come back to your own body, will you die??? Doh…., NO…. of course, not, what I meant by detachment is to be in the present moment, these moment and be an observer of your feelings, emotions and thoughts. You may find this intimidated and scary, hard as you drift away by your thoughts and wonders. But after few attempts you will able to see, feel your own reflection through your inner self. Here I am not talking about to achieve things or cure any mental conditions or anxiety but to understand natural existence of your own self-awareness, what we do not know about ourselves are purposes, these ways you will about to accept and know about “why?” in your life, I just showed you “how”. Being an observer you do not have to react to any feelings or emotions, but let them just observe as it is, accept those without any logical arguments, or analysis or explanation, (mind plays tricks here but remember you are just an observers) many things are happening same time you will see it, observed it and may be feel it too. But don’t get reactive, just let it be…. After a while you will see some angles which you were before not able to see. Being in the present you are aware and conscious, you are an observer. You will able to see, feel and observe things, feelings, emotions, acts and conditions differently. As you are an observer and you are really resilient to the situation you are in right now. You don’t have to react or do anything. You will able to see the abundance flow of peace, infinite oneness. You will now able to see the origins of your own feelings, thoughts and behaviours. You become self-aware and more conscious than ever. Now ask yourself as an observer, how peaceful are you? I bet, you will be at a peace, neither happy nor sad, neutral. And that what help us to be ourselves. That’s what I call a true supreme knowledge.