Sometime you are not performing well under the circumstances. Your behaviour make you think why am I doing this? Do I have to do that? And it contradicts each other without rational explanations.
I have come across those situations many times in my life. It happens and I’ve seen myself not perform well, but it does not make me weak, but gives me an opportunity to become more resilient and face the challenges of the life. It seems hard to achieve, convert each obstacle into an opportunity. But they are meant to be like that. Sole purpose for these obstacles are to draw a better things in your life, in reality I have experienced this.
However, sometimes it looks like gauntlet all this plethora of jargons and tingling, little attention to the unnecessary details leads us nowhere and makes you less effective and less productive. I think it’s more likely to do with human emotions. We are all faces waves of emotions, we sail through the sea of emotions and sometimes faces impromptu challenges through tough times. So I simply let it be.
Bit of bizarre as I am writing this, felt like, Yeah…, but then…. Can I do anything about it either way? Can I get it under control? Well, it seems not impossible to detach from our emotions, but still it arise a lot and we can feel its effect on our body and on our mind. Yet I think it is hard for me to express what it is and how to come out of it.
I am currently working toward to develop a habit to be master. Well, I am going to be brutally honest. Current Job hunting is distressing a lot, also keep the consistence to something, dedication became a virtue. Nevertheless, discipline has not, that I haven’t tried. It is just being unexplained excuses. Partly I would take a blame for it. Rest its my human nature which carried away sometime wondering, training and getting many things done at ones. Naturally it leads to failure and sometimes in the desert, nowhere…
I wish there were a time machine somewhere, So I could have prevented myself.